overflowing thoughts

I am currently sitting in my public library on a Saturday afternoon studying. There are so many people here, but the feeling of close community is overwhelming. As much as I don't want to be working on homework at the moment, I feel it is best even though my mom kinda made me come today. All throughout highschool, I just kinda told myself to worry about grades later. Well it is later and I'm a senior. Many of my friends have already applied to schools and have been accepted, while I am struggling to keep my grades up and have no earthly clue what I will be doing next year. I'm not even upset, I'm just conflicted. My options for next year are never-ending and I think thats what I hate the most. God has given me so many chances to do so many different things, but I do not know which one to choose. I think that my life has taken so many crazy twists and turns latley, that it is finally slowing down so I can figure out what I want. Thank goodness. And as of like 30 minutes ago, Gracie has a boyfriend. :') It is so cute and I am so happy for her. Things are changing for the better for all of my friends and me. I can not wait to decide my future for next 5 year and I know whatever I choose, it will be the best.