I'm currently sitting in my room listening to songs from the movie 'LOL' and the one that sticks out to me is Heart on Fire. For some reason I just keep replaying it over and over again. The song is about a relationship between a teenage couple, but whenever I listen to it, I think about my relationship with God. He loves me so much and I could never return that amount of love. While every single one of my friends are filling out college applications and buying things for dorms, I'm really thinking about what I want to do next year.
For the longest time, I thought I wanted to be in public relations or journalism then switched to majoring in education and becoming a first grade teacher, but now I am just so confused. Things came up in my family (money struggles) and I can't leave for college. My parents basically sat me down and said I needed to stay here and work to save up to pay for school. Naturally this really upset me, but luckily I had a church retreat coming up. Going on this retreat made me really think about what I wanted for my life and I considered going into mission work or youth ministry. I am still really thinking about what I want to do and nothing is final, but at the moment, I'm not even sure I want to go to school the first year or two.
The more I think about it, the more depressed I become. All my friends are so lucky to know what they wnat or where they are going. I think more and more about leaving all of my friends in less then a year and I literally start to cry. The friends I've made recently are the best thing thats ever happened to me. God has seriously blessed me. like how awesome is he?
Anyways, I'm just going to pray really hard and look for signs that mission work is something God wants for me or if he has something else in mind. I trust God and know that he already knows exactly where I'll end up.
keep it classy readers :)
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