starting over

On Monday my dad lost his job. I've literally thought of a thousand and one ways to start this post and I guess that is as simple as it gets. My family isnt the wealthiest family in the world by any means so the fact that my dad is out of a job is a huge blow to the head for all of us. My mom is a teacher and I am so thankful that she is, but we all know that isnt the most high paying job around. When I woke up to my dad coming home and telling my family what had happened, I balled. I lost it. I hate crying and the way it feels, the way I look when I do and the feelings that come with it. But on Monday I couldn't control it. It was hard to look at anyone without crying.

My dad looked so lost and my mom just tried to hold it together. At one point she tried to laugh and give me a hug, but her giggles turned into tears too. My brother would hardly speak because he didn't know what to say. Thankfully, my family does not spend money on everything, but we have to cut back more than we already do.

Despite this horrible news, my mom told us we were debt free besides her car and of course the house, so that helps incredibly! We are a very close family and tell each other pretty much everything and I'm glad my parents are so honest with us about this stuff.

As many of you know, this year I stayed home and I'm taking classes at the local community college. At this point in my life, I am glad I did. I've grown as a person, met some uh interesting people... haha and I've got to be there for my little brother as he grows into a wonderful boy. The second I heard that my dad had lost his job, I offered to stay home again next year. This is not by any means what I want to do, but if it is something that I need to do, then I will.

I know that good things are coming for my dad and family, and it is just an uphill battle until we get there, but I am so glad we have each other to lean on as well as other family and our friends.

I have a wonderful, supportive, adorable family!!

Love, Shan